wt's wrg v tis family
wt actually isit eu so hate abt me
tis family sux
i feel worthless
eu noe wt mum
go on..go ahead n hate me!
i gave up on tis family anyways
i rili so fed up the way eu trt me
y do eu hv to b lyk tis?
y do eu hv to trt me tis way
wt m i to eu?a slave?more lyk a prisoner
bt hu cares
eu cud do anyth eu wn on me
i'm jz a worthless shit anyways
eu're lyk a control freak
eu control evry1 especially me
eu cntrl evryth in my life
even my dream is fuckin' spoiled by U!
eu as my mother,i'd say,U failed lyk Hell
eu've failed on being a mother
failed to b a 'good' 1 actually,i mean for me
bt eu do so well as a mother to ur precious sons eyhh?
the way eu trt them,so bloody NICE
tht's so freakin unfair to me ain't it..
U wil NEVER support me on anyth
eu'll NEVER listen
a mom n a daughter shud b lovin each oth
hv happy times with each oth
bt we seemed cnnt b tht way
it's all cz of eu
my heart is ripped:::
whnever i talk to eu
whnever i see eu,i'll get frightened
my heartbeat goes triple times speed
idk y i'm such a noob
i'm upset bcz of U
ppl around are upset bcz of U
U never care much,especially whn it comes to me
eu're being so ignorant
tel eu what......i'm DISAPPOINTED in U
i hv no words nymore
except to kp them in my heart
i'm desperate
i jz cnnt UNDERSTAND y r eu so different frm oths
eu cnnt b a loving person
eu cn,bt eu oni love ur precious sons,they r the once tht matter to eu
i dont rili matter,right....i cud jz disappear without U noticing
someday,i'll die infront of eu,to let eu noe,
eu never happen to notice tht i was planning a suicide
i'll let eu mourn,my friends r so welcomed to my funeral,
n say
"GTH,goodbye shin"
my life is so ruined by eu
i rmb 1 day,my beloved grandpa gave $100 to me
tht was the 1st time some1 had ever gave me such lot $
i was so happy lyk a happy innocent child in beautiful dreams
U told me to gv the $ to eu,so eu cn kp them in bank 4 me
hu noes...
i was so stupid tht i gave the $ to eu
tht was the ONLY thing i hv left tht's frm my grandpa b4 he's dead
n eu USED it!!
eu noe hw hard it is?do eu noe hw a child wud feel?
i was so smal tht year,i'm so very weak
n U told me tht the $ frm grandpa is gone,bcz of U!!?
grandpa is dead!i hv NOTHING left tht is frm him
n y must eu take it away?WHY
tht $ doesnt matter to me,wt REALLY MATTERS is tht's the 1st n LAST thng grandpa ever gave me!!!eu dont fucking understand,do eu?
i SO MISS SO MISS my grandpa(叶德良)
although he's blind whn he's still with us in this world
bt i noe n i can feel it
grandpa loves me
bt then eu took his gift away n USED them..
eu're so pathetic,no wonder y eu n dad were divorced
eu're the 1 who happen to hv probs
made tis family lyk pig sty
eu're the mastermind
dad is not a romantic man
n eu're not a tolerant woman
tht's y eu both dont work out
eu r the 1 with a craw-gun-mouth in the hse
bt then eu owz lyk to act so pity infront of grandma
eu go around n tel ur fwens tht i'm a useless child
say i'm bad n all
bt ppl out ther dnt noe wt actually happened
did eu guys ever c her attitude whn she's at hme?
did eu ever c her scolding,beat,angry,mad
if eu ever did,eu must b so scared of her
i'm mentally freaked out,jz 4 being in tis family
friends
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wt r fwens for?
wt r fwens rili lyk?
it appears tht fwens r labelled the 'most loyalty'
bt actually,fwens cnnt b trusted
fwens r independable
they hang out,bt whn it comes to probs,they run away
fwens come to eu,jz to entertain themselves n hv fun
whn some1 hu comes to face terrible probs n difficulties
'friends' r those hu wud b the 1st eu search for help
they wud pass eu by,n walk through saying
"erm,who the hoe r eu?"
they act fucking anonymous
i hv to kp my fwens accompany
yeah,like..everyday
ppl hu r with probs,-love,friends,mental probs
bt hu's gonna b ther for me
numorous of ppl with prob a day,i'm the 1 they come forward to
noe what....acting strong is so sad,makes me sick
hving tis kind of family i feel so pain
it's lyk i invented pain...
no1 wud ever noe
hu cares anyways as long as they get wt they want
every1's being selfish
they oni thk for themselves instead of care for those ppl out ther,
the less-fortunates,orphans,
owkay~mayb we dont hv the power to care for those
bt we DO hv the right to care abt our fwens
nt to jz leave them whn they nd eu
whn eu hv probs,eu come to ur fwens
bt whn ur fwens hving prob n they come to eu
eu run away
these r the ppl hu are being so selfish
n i hate it
i hate it lyk Hell
wt happened to 'we are One'?
hmm
seemed we never were
it's always 'ME-myself-and I'
foolish
we come to earth alone
we DIE alone
there's no1 we cud bring tgt with
so y dnt try to gv more
instead of expecting for more
